silent heart...

Assalamualaikum wbt..

sometimes, apa yg kite harapkan kita xkan dapat..

tapi setiap apa yg berlaku,

Allah swt da tau kite mmg boleh hadapi nya..

sering kali cemburu dirasai..

melihat org lain memiliki apa yg kite xdpt miliki..

merasai apa yg kite xdpt rasai..

gembiranya diorg..

bahagianya diorang..

alangkah indahnya if kite juga dpt merasai nya..

dpt memilikinye..

tp..

sume tu impossible..

mmg xkn mungkin..

Allah swt da tetapkn da qada' n qadar..

siapakah kite nk melawannya..

memotivasikan diri..

optimiskn diri..

mengumpul serpihan semangat diri..

membina kekuatan hati..

supaya dpt bertahan..

supaya dpt mengorak langkah ke depan..

masih ada sinar kebahagian..

masih ada sinar harapan..

masih ada pelangi menanti di kala gerimis..

*kehilangan akan menyedarkan betapa beruntungnye kehadiran seseorg dlm diri kite..

"Tafsir Diri"

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Kemalasan mnguasai diri tuk men'post' entry sejak 2months ago??

Perghh..ape nk jadi ni?dah lama xbukak blog sendri..haha..nmpak sgt malas tahap dewa..

Tapi..

ak still tetap setia menulis diari di buku kesayangn ak kat umh(everytime balik kg la..)

ok done for the introduction..

Setahun dah berlalu, sekarang ak da sem3..xsangka begitu cepat, pejam celik pejam celik dah setahun, experiment still on going, masih lg mngumpul data..mncari subject study..haha

Ak hnya ade msa smpai Dec2012 ni je tuk siapkn sume2 kije lab, then bulan Jan2013 taun depan, wajib ak writing thesis..If not, berangan la nk abskn Msc lam masa 2taun..huhu..so, bile abs lambat, maknanye ak kena 3taun la spend tuk wat Msc ni n itu adalah xbest..sbb ape xbest?

1. Duit elaun da makin kurang kpd half.(itupon if ak still dpt)

2. Starting kije lambat la cik kak(mostly member sebatch ngn ak da start kije da)

3. We da nk start bising bile la ak nk abs blaja

4. Xsanggup da nk mngadap Sv ak(leh x one of d reason, tp plg xkukuh la..hehe)

5. Nnti lambat la ak leh nikah('demm', haha..one of d most important reason??)

So, konklusi of d story, kena abiskn by hook or by crook 1 year lg..if not, forget laaa..(mybe need to letak punishment kot..ermm..)

but still tu jamu mata sekalian readers, ak letak gambo post raye(oh lupe, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, maaf zahir batin if terkasar posting..hehe)

dr atas ; We, Me n K.long, A.ise,Kak n Me
tgh; Paksu's family, Mek
bwh; Mak, Khazim, Khalil(new family member)

me n him
rumah terbuka Dedey

kepoyoan..erkk..

person lov most (my beloved father)

my 9month preg lovely sis with bro in law..

most rapat cousin (ank paksu)

 

Assalamualaikum wbt..

berhari2 entry ni lam ruangan edit, bilakah mau siap utk di post ni??aishh..Nis, rajinkn dirimu!!..hoho

setelah kisah sedih berlalu, pelangi memancarkn sinarnye..perghhh..sastera kah??

well, tersebutlah kisah seorg gadis ngah memujuk jejaka tersebut utk di bwa berjumpe ngn keluarganye..

setelah sbulan tempoh pujukan n sedikit bodekan, akhirnye jejaka tersebut telah membuat keputusan utk mnyetujui perancangan gadis tersebut..

TETAPI..

mlm sebelum gadis itu membeli tiket, dia telah mnyerahkn kpda jejaka tersebut utk membuat keputusan yg sebenar-benarnye kerana dia bukanlah seorg yg suka memaksa..dan dia juga telah redha sekiranya jejaka tersebut menolak planningnya..

BUT..

at last, jejaka tersebut setuju!!yeay!!ikut balik klate..hehe

then, cerita di rumah gadis tersebut??

perghh, too many story to tell, well for d summary je la k..nk lebih2 find my handwritten diary maybe..keh3

comments from gadis punyer family:-

1. We (which is d father) - most important person to tackle..but d personality of We is very protective, not too open minded(means to accept outsider)..so, of course he needs time..but from my sibling's point of view, jejaka tersebut dikira acceptable la by We..so, 3*** for u my dear..haha
2. kak (sibling) - she said ok la..sbb dia pandai bwak diri kat tempat org n dia pandai borak..but pa pe pon, awk yg nk kat dia, so ape pon plihan awk, kak sokong je..itu la kata2nye..hoho
3. kak long (sibling) - he's very good..k.long leh kamceng ngn dia..perghhh, a very green light from my sis..untunglaaaa..
4. mek jo (aunt) - well, "dia ok k dik ngn family kite??jd ke nk kawin ngn adik??" erkk??what??adakah dirinye patut risau atau diriku??terbalik la plak..haha..well, thumbs up for u en jejaka..well done in winning ati mak sdara sy yg plg rapat..hehe
5. mok su (aunt) - byk nau soklan si jejaka kena soal..mcm2..kalah pegawai penyiasat persendirian..nasib mu la whai jejaka oii..hehe..but des's something awk utang ngn mok su after kite ade ikatan, hope u r not forget k..=P, but well, u r just doing good, mok su pon da approve..=)

so, dats all dat i can share..mungkin lepas ni cerita si gadis k rumah si jejaka plak??ermmm..cant wait for dat(is it sarcastic??)..perghhh, nervous, butterfly in stomach..lalala~~

p/s: mekasih tuk awk sbb sudi dtg umh sy..very appreciate dat..=)

"Pemergian itu pasti"

Assalamualaikum wbt..its been a long time i didnt post any stories of mylife, so many things had happened n so many stories i wanna share..bad news n good news..

jam 500AM 26April2012, mama tercinta meninggalkn kami berlima sekeluarga..stage 4 of cancer, des's no other options, no other treatments dat the doctor 've to save her..there's nothing they can do..first time ak dengar y hospital not only mengubati pesakit but they also help pesakit from suffering till d patient die..like giving morphine??(some kind of medicine that help to release pain but ve' high impact such d patient will be in unconscious state)..

first time ak mngalami perasaan berada dlm situasi yg mana d death is so soon, pray to Allah that she died so that all d suffering will ending..its so hurt inside, went through d situation all over again..hospital, late night, crying, van jenazah, somebody dat was close to me, mandikn jenazah, ciuman terakhir seorg ank, tanam jenazah,and all dis thing happened again..but knowing dat its d only way of how d suffering will be ended, i'm grateful to Allah..

n knowing dat i can handle dis, i can go through this thing, i'm trying hard to keep on going..keep on building a strong heart..keep on believing des always reason, des always hikmah y its happen..

but i am grateful dat des someone always stand beside me n pray for me to b strong once again..

but sometimes ak terpkir adkah ak xlayak utk dpt kasih syg seorg ibu??tp ak cepat2 istighfar, setiap kejadian ade hikmahnya..jangn menentang qada' n qadar Allah..

cemburu bila kwan bercerita tentang ibu, how their mother treat them, cooked their fav food, hearing they stories about their crush, really make my tears rolling down..but its normal right??and i wish that my heart can stay strong, keep believing dats des always some treasure dat Allah had kept for me in spite of all this sad things happened..

tutti frutti..

aii n assalamualaikum guys n gurls..

ari ni even ngah bz like hell, ak nk update gak one post..last nite, ak p mkn tutti fruiti ngn Sarah n En.Tedy..

first time ak dgr perkataan tutti frutti adalah di mane yer??rsnye EnTedy kot y cakap, ingt2 lupe da..hoho..then, smlm barula smpai hajat d hati nk mkn, even lame giler planning nk p mkn but bcoz of d price n bcoz of d glamour giler namenye (sampaikn ak jd takut nk p cna, assume org2 HIGH class je p mkn kat, ingt ak ni xleh nk afford la), so tunggu la time ngah ade duit lebih ckit, baru p mkn..

nk dijdkn cerita, ktrg p mkn dinner dlu tau kat kdai mamak, ak balun roti nan garlic, pergghhh mmg kenyang giler da time tu..eskrem tu xtau nk sumbat mane da tp sbb teringin n EnTedy pon menerima idea giler ak tu, so p la mkn..kedudukn dia adalah dekat dgn kolej ak(UiTM sg buloh)..berada di Bandar Baru Sg Buloh, dekat ngn Tropicana punyer badminton court..kedai tu adlah salah satu cwangn tutti fruti yg baru dibuka jugak la..hoho..ade 1 lg cawangn dia yg second dekat ialah di Kota Damansara, sunway giza..tp tu dekat ngn umah EnTedy la..jauh la plak ngn kolej ak..hoho

member ak kata "selamat berjaya" bile ak kata nk p mkn tutti fruti, ak da pelik da..apsal la bdak ni kata lagu tu kn, mahal sgt k??takut la plak if cannot afford kn..hoho..mmg first n last la kot klu lagu tu..pastu, msuk j lam kedai tu, nmpk biasa2 je, cume elit la jugak ckit2, ade kerusi bentuk tgn kat dlm kedai tu, lawa gak decoration, tema warna kedai putih hijau(jgn ingt ak nk berpolitik lak ea..;P)..pastu, ak pon ikut la Sarah, cara nk membeli eskrem tu..

mula2 kite amik bekas(cup) yg disedia kn di bhgian kiri skali..ade 2 saiz tau, 1 sederhana, 2besarrrr..ak ambik yg sederhana tu ja, pastu sebelah dia ade mesin picit eskrem(bhsa kg ak la..hi3)..1 station ade 2 perisa, sarah kata everyday perisa dia len2..so, mlm td mybe waktu xbape nk masyuk ngn selera ak kot, sume perisa dia pelik2 name n xbape nk kick(kaw)..ak amik 3 perisa(vanila, bluebery, lupe da 1 lg ape)..mmg basic dia mcm yogurt, ak da la xbape nk berkenan ngn yogurt ni, so agk kureng gak r impression for d first time..ok, now lepas nk picit sume eskrem yg ko nk rs,(ak suggest tekan slow2 n stop, pastu p next station lak, baru leh rs sume perisa..jgn la amik byk2 tuk 1 station sbbnye harga dikire ats berat yg ko ambil), korunk pon p la amik topping tuk eskrem tu, ade mcm2..coklat rice, marshmallow, kokocrunch, buah2 an, n mcm2 lg..=)

then, lasly barula p bayr n dont b supprise with d price..ak kena smlm RM15, tu pon less 10%, student price..EnTedy kena RM18 rggit(sbb dia amik bykkk giler nk penuh cup tu) n sarah kena RM10 jer..hoho

ni pnduan cam ne nk mkn (tuk org mcm ak yg baru first time nk p)he3

ni adalah antra topping dia

ni saiz cup sederhana..basar la jugak kn

episod merasa eskrem??boleh la tahan sedapnye tp disbbkn perisa ak amik xbape kena ngn selra ak, so agk susah nk abis kn..n lg 1, ak mmg kenyang yg amat..huhu

last2, sarah yg berjaya abiskn dlu, then ak compete ngn MrTedy abiskn eskrem..hampir nk tersembur n terketar2 menahan kesejukn eskrem tu..hoho..mmg xdpt r rs nikmat sebenar tutti frutti..but its good..not soo bad..(even ak prefer Oreo McFlurry McD lg..)..hahaha

so, konklusion of d day, xde la mahal giler2 mcm ak bayng2kn(still affordable la bg ak)..n xde la sedap giler smpai addicted mcm kawan ak sorng ni..hoho

n soooo sorry coz not uploading d original picture as ak xamik pon gmbar smlm (EnTedy xnk amik..kesokkk ngn dia..haha)..hoho

p/s: TQ for EnTedy coz layan perangai childish sy ni..kih3..nasib awk la yer..sabo je la..hoho..next eskrem station is Baskin Robin k..tggu next editionnn..hihihi

no, i'm not okay..=(

p/s: post has little bit harsh word => need to motivate myself

hard to say..
hard to do..
so many things..
but must going through..

second week..
the first week..

learn how to deal wit people..
learn how to manage ur stress..
know ur position (awk org bwahan jeee k..heh)

but it just..
i know i can manage all dat..
know i can handle it..
jus dont b so spoiled kid la (hey u, manje giler r ko ni..pe laaa)..

blaja la dr kesilapan wei!!!..
jgn dok harap org len j nk ajr..
learn ur mistake..
be more proactive (nak ak record k kata2 Prof n rewind2 back to u smpai ko lena??)

u r not a a child k, u r mature enough to handle these things..
so, prove it..prove u can do this!!
their words is just a breeze that blow ur hair..
dont take it too much k..
b strong heart..noe u can..of coz u will..
fighting nis!!!

bukit cerakah second tyme..=)

ehem3..xtually da lama entry ni dok di ruang edit lam blog ak..xde msa nk tulis or more accurate is klu ade msa pon, xde mood nk tulis..so, d kesempatan yg ak msih byk mood tuk mngarang blog y xseberapa nih, baik ak siapkn n publish another story of my life k..hi3..=)

nk ciplak ayt member ak bg kat ak,"korang ni klu dating, cube la p tempat2 yg bukan ber air-con..ni asyik p shopping complex je.."..so, konklusion of d story is ak n d geng(as always, che n sara) plus MrTed p la k bukit cerakah..xtually dis is my second time p bukit cerakah..first time ari tu p msa abis exam second sem xsilap ak..

location kat area seksyen 6 rsnye(bleh plak lupe..hi3) tp mmg dekat la ngn uitm shah alam tu..pastu, ktrg p ngn 1 buah kete..MrTed yg bawak "mot-mot"(his car name)..senarnye ak plan da lama, tp time planning tu nk ajak Cho(kwn MrTed), kononnye masa tu nk celebrate besday dia tp ats sbb2 xdpt elak, terpksa cancel n cho pon xdpt ikut..(sorry Cho, nnti klu da pluang lg, insyaAllah ak repay back k tp xjanji..ho3)..

perbezaan first n second time p adalah:-

1. ak xdpt nek basikal (frust gak r sbb klu nk lpas gian nek basikal, kat cni je la pluang y ade..basikal ak yg ade kat umh tu da slamat berkarat da..ho3) - ramai giler org sbb time weekend..so, moralnye klu nk nek basikal, make sure kul 8pg tu da terpacak depan bukit cerakah k..hu3

2. tempat lebih organize..maksud ak ialah first time p ari tu rs mcm jauh giler nek basikal n bsau giler rsnye tempat tu..tp second time, ak da bleh susun lam kpala otak ak kat cni area ape, kat ctu area ape..baru phm la klu bca peta tu..hihi

3. dpt nek bas disediakn- first time dlu xnek pon bas dia(mcm xwujud pon ade bas tu) n mmg x p pon kat empangan(lupe da name..tp lawa giler)..second time ni siap berhimpit lam bas..hihi

4. of course la orgnye..p ngn che n sara plus MrTed..mestila len feeling tu..hoho..tp sedih gak Dila xdpt turut serta sbb mcm da mengimbau kenangan time degree da..huhu..(emo3..)

5. xde la sepenat first time p sbbnye kitrg xnek beskal..ktrg jalan kaki smpai nk ujung, pastu patah balik nek bas pastu nek bas lg tuk pusing 1 round..hihi..p pon xde la lama sgt, lam kul 10 smpai, kul 1 lebih2 da chow da..

done wit d story..next is enjoy d sightseeing of d bukit cerakah(tp gmbar xbape nk lawa sbb kamera 2mp je..ade sorng tu xbwak cybershot dia..cettt)..but thanks to che koz bg pinjam 5mp samsung galaxy dia..hihi

ati2 sara..jatuh kang lam air tu..hi3

che n sara berusaha tuk touch pokok..but failed..hihi

ni rumah 4musim ye adik2(time ni p musim nk dekat musim bunga..ho3)..=)

my bff..=)

end of d day..=)