no, i'm not okay..=(

p/s: post has little bit harsh word => need to motivate myself

hard to say..
hard to do..
so many things..
but must going through..

second week..
the first week..

learn how to deal wit people..
learn how to manage ur stress..
know ur position (awk org bwahan jeee k..heh)

but it just..
i know i can manage all dat..
know i can handle it..
jus dont b so spoiled kid la (hey u, manje giler r ko ni..pe laaa)..

blaja la dr kesilapan wei!!!..
jgn dok harap org len j nk ajr..
learn ur mistake..
be more proactive (nak ak record k kata2 Prof n rewind2 back to u smpai ko lena??)

u r not a a child k, u r mature enough to handle these things..
so, prove it..prove u can do this!!
their words is just a breeze that blow ur hair..
dont take it too much k..
b strong heart..noe u can..of coz u will..
fighting nis!!!

stress

ok, now i'm stress..dont know y n dont know how..hu2..
feels like wanna cry alone in a dark room at the corner of the room..crying out loud..
feels like wanna doing something crazy dat satisfied my heart..
feels like wanna smack down someone..
feels like wanna get out of here..
feels like wanna scream out loud so dat everyone know wat i'm thinking about..

its feels miserable..
emotionally unstable..
damn dis headache!!

so, conclusion??
it just my thinking,
thinking from the tired body,
unstable mind,
uncontrolled mind,

so,
kewarasan akal, senipis kulit bwang keimanan,
menghalang...
from doing all dat crazy things..
i know who am i
i know wats d consequences
i know it
jus know it

so,
stop being selfish my dear
stop being childish
stop being spoiled kid
jus stop it!!

exam fever.....

assalamualaikum wbt..

from title, mesti dpt agk kan??musim2 bulan April, Mei ni..standard ah..musim exam bg pelajar2 IPT or IPTA..termasukla jua driku ni..xsangka, pejam celik pejam celik dah kali k 6 ak menempuh final paper d universiti tempatan tercinta ini..heh...never thought that almost 3 years i spend my quality time here..searching, grabbing much2 knowledge that i can hold n keep in..i'm wondering whether me back 3 years ago is still same with me now??hopefully not..hahaha..

after struggling ngn thesis, now i can breath peacefully without thinking of those creepy, scary, nitemare of dat PCR< extraction DNA< electrophoresis gel set<Gel Doc< blablabla...n all stuff of presentation, reading journals, and writing thesis..but now, still got to think about exam final..hoho..with low carry marks, i need to score in final..if not, confirm meet again d same face of lec next sem..wawa...nauzubillah...dont wan dat happen to me again..need to score or at least pass d subjek..huhu..aja aja fighting hanis!!!!u can do it!!!

my exam schedule like it dont wan me to waste any time..can u imagine how i wan to arrange my time??let me tell u, 28, 30, 3, 4, 5..dats d date..n d most frightening moments were d 1st paper n d last 3 papers..no gap..i'm so "alive"...hahaha..dats y i said no play2 time for me now..huhu..but most of dat i'm really greatfull now dat my thesis already gone, if not plus d tension of thesis n final exam, could make me one of the patient in "Tanjung Rambutan" i think...haha..dont say like dat hanis.."masin mulut tu kang"..no no no no...

so, last topic is i wanna share some of d way to release stress of the exam fever..of course we cannot run away from stress not only u but including myself..so, i'm sharing dis not only for u but also reminder to myself..

ok, now 1st of all kaji dlu ape yg membuatkn dri menjdi stress???adakah sbb member??adakah sebb situasi blajar x sesuai??adakah sebb mmg rs mlas dlm dri??adakah sebb rs xckup msa tuk blaja??adakah sebb ade komitmen lain yg perlu diutamakn??or adakah sebb lost hope, mood xde nk study..xde prasaan nk study..klu study pon bukn ley score pon..list kn dlu pe yg menyebabkn stress....

second, lpas2 list tu..kena la motivate diri..kenal pasti jenis motivation yg diperlukn..adakah motivasi jenis memujuk??ataupon jenis motivasi yg mencabar diri??or jenis motivasi yg memarahi diri??klu ak sndri, ak suka motivasi yg memujuk dri ak..tp ade sesetngah org tu, dia suka agresif, kata2 yg mencabar dri dia sndri mcm "ak xkn berjaya klu xdpt score exam kalu ni..org lain ley score, nape ak xbley"..like dat la..lebey kureng..or motivasi yg memarahi mcm "ko tu da la bengap, blaja xpndai plak tu..nape la exam yg simple ni ko xley score??bdoh betul la ko ni"..ade jugak owg rs termotivate bile owg len kata dia cam tu..well, it depends..

lpas tu, bile da rs di motivate tu, cpat2 la bukak buku study..hihi..motivasi ni kena slalu ade lam dri kite..bawu la kite akn slalu think positif, yakin dri n berjaya lam idup..

tp owg slalu kata "cakap mmg la senang, nk buat tu yg susah".. tu betul..mmg betul..dgn kesusahan yg kite buat tulah, baru kite dpt menikmati kemanisan kejayaan n hargainye..klu sume benda senang, mesti kite cepat lupekn n xmnghargai pon kejayaan kite dpt tu..tul x??

so, d last word for today is "ur life will not going anywhere if u r afraid to take d first step forward n dont look back wat u ve done coz u cannot change in d past (anys, 2011)."..