seminggu at home...

diary of today??one week at home feels like one month coz got nothing to do..(xtually lots of works to do but when d laziness came through across d body, cant do anything..ha3)..wake up in d morning, preparing for brekfast plus lunch, washing n drying some clothes if had, watching tv, watching naruto, surfing, sleeping, bla bla bla..nahhh, same routine everyday..how i'm gonna change dat???

d story of today was i met someone at d "pasar tani"..then, seriously i cant remember her..hu2..last2 she told me dat she's from PLKN same wit me..hu2..i'm sorry, really sorry for her, i cant remember..its not like i dont care about all of d times together but really my baddd habit..i'm easy to forget people face n info about him or her..really sorry..

then, menu of cooking today was "tom yam ayam"..really wanna help mum but half way only coz gotta help my dad to paint its lorry..hu2..while was painting, my aunt n uncle from Kemumin arrived..Paksu n Maksu with their child, K.long, aizad and aiman..really close cousin to me..=)..so, talk for a while wit them..chit chat update life..he3..

at nite, dating wit pksu n his family to hang out and dinner..while in d car mksu ask me about my mr. tedy..whether i'm still contacting him or not..said still but now quarrellings..hu3..it had been since yesterday..then, we all went to a restaurant and eating..at home, my sis, K.ida already at home wit her family..going to be mother of two daughter soon..in dis month of June if im not mistaken..u know dat her first daughter was so cute n her skin was so white..if d face is not like Malay, sure people gonna say she is Chinese..ha3..but she's really cuteee...he3..

next thing is i already made my decision, i'm not gonna take master dis month of Sept..i'm gonna work first..dat is it...its not d only reason that my money is not enough, i'm really wanna help my family..having them not working at home, n just using d money of their children every month..really sad watch them work from morning till evening n tired n so on..they already old for that..then, its my duty to take care of them n so forth..i wanna them stay at home do nothing and using my own money n my sis, bro money to spent day to day..i'm not supposed to use their money anymore..so, for now i'll go hunting for a job after knew d result and insyaAllah if i got a chance, before my age reach 25, i'll have d master title..insyaAllah..=)

plan for now:

• waiting my sis to get home
• send her back to Taiping
• waiting home for d construction of house
• hunting for partime job
• hunting for real job
• gotta get Master
• get married (keh3)

(p/s: u know dat if we lov dat person, its very easy to forgive him n forget all his wrong..hu3..)

home sweet home...

hari ni hari ke3 ak berada di rumah..setelah berhempas pulas kat u, akhirnye tamat sudeh n alhamdulillah safely reach at home..bertolak friday nite (20/5/2011) n arrived at 5am di bus stop kedai mulong..as usual, we da siap mnunggu ak d seberang jln cna wit my sis's new car..hi3..smpai je kat umh, bilik yg ditinggal kosong ntah bape abad, mmg spt yg expected ah..mngemas was d first thing to do..tukar cadar, sapu lntai, bla bla bla..then, selamat di alam mimpi..best gilerrrrr...he3...

hari pertama, nothing much i do xcept lepak kat umh, main ngn ank2 ayam..ha3..u know dat ade 2 ekor aym yg tgh mengeram n sekor tu ank dia da byk mnetas..so cute...geram ak tgk bulu2 lembut ank aym tu, pe ag..dibelai2 la ank aym tu even ibu dia marah bgai nk terkam ak..but d sweet thing is ibu dia xpatuk pon tgn ak, she's a good hen..so, mmg xlpas peluang ah ak..sume ank2 dia ak main..he3...then, time for cook..tolong mama mane yg ptut..ak goreng sotong celup tepung, goreng hati ayam n mask syur air..sume kije ak menolong jew..he3..maklumlah keproan memasak x terserlah lg..kua3....

hari kedua, pon sama..xbuat pa pe..kemas umah ckit2..sbb kemlasan melanda..agpon alone at home..Ahad, mama kije n we pon kije..so, bosan gak r kat umh..nk kemas umh, mcm mls ag pon xtau nk simpan brang kat ne..hu4...bgn da lambat, sidai2 baju, then tgk tv..zohor tu bawu masak..keh3..ak test power msak ak ngn ikn bakar n ikan masak kicap..ikn msak kicap tu not bad r but ikn bakar tu, mybe sbb ikn xsegar so amatla xsedap..huhu...last2 sedekah kat aym ak..he3..

today??erm..xbuat pa pe gak..jap ag mau msak..but sayur xdak..aish, xdak mood tul la..ingt nk kuar tp klu da bgn pon lambat, mmg xde nye nk kuar..agpon td Mek Jo ade dtg, so borak2 dr kul 11 smpai kul1..byk la cter yg ak tau sepanjang ak xdok kat kg nih..keh3..nk ak cter k??xyah la kot..he3..yg penting nye, xde story yg hotttt..klu da, ak cter k..=)..

ari tu, b4 balik klntan, ak da beli present tuk mr.tedy..kind of ring, just for him jew..des something special about dat ring..ntah la..terpk nk beli..dia pon xde kata xnak..even dia xpenah pkai cincin, hopefully, he'll wear it for me..agpon d ring xde la cam obvious of anything, just simple giler..che ak kata ak kind of romantik..ha3..no comment..bile msa wanna give him, tu ak tak tau..he said wanna come to klntan dis next couple week..but ak xberharap pon, agpon he wanna meet his fwen..so, xpk pon..klu da jodoh, jumpe la kami..if not, ak xkesah pon(dlm ati..perghh..ha3)..

next stody is about wat i'm going to do next..sambung or kije or???klu ikutkn hati, half ak nk buat master(if giving a chance), half lg ak rs baik smbung..its depends on sape yg ak jupe n pe pendapt dia..id she/he said better smbung, ak pk smbung ag baik but if he/she said better kije, ak akn more to kije..but it is just for now..coz when i decide i'll pulun habis2an on my decision..owg lain leh buat, y not me..kn2???so, nnti ak cter lg ape yg ak decide k..skwg xdecide pa pe ag..hu3..

(mood: mlsnye driku but lapa..huhu..)

Alhamdulillah..berakhir episod tension...

esk, sumenye ak berakhir..alhamdulillah..segalanye, penat lelah ak akhirnye mendapat hasil..ak da buat ape yg ak termampu..ak xtau ape akn jd selepas ni ak yakin sume ade hikmahnye...xtually kisah yg sebenarnye ialah berakhirnye episod thesis ak..ari ni ak buat cd, hardcover thesis esk amik n luse kena submit...insyaAllah, klu xdak aral melintang, sume akan settle..:)

skrg, crita baru setelah lama ak mnyepi x update blog..bukn pe, xde masa n xdak mood..ak buknnye rajin sgt mngarang nih but if dtg mood nk mnggoreng ayt tu, jgn la di halang..kah3..

1st story i wanna to tell u all is my Pulau Pangkor vacation...kitowg p seramai 18 owg, ak as penjaga amanah (as  usual) mengumpul setiap sowng 3ratus hengget...but balance ak pulangkn...xde la smpai 3ratus kitowg spend..still ade balance..hihi..3days 2 nites..so lots of memories yg tercipta..bertolak jam 12 tgh mlm dr depan bank islam lam Uitm, ngn 2 buah van..brang2 tiap sowg tu usah ckap la, pergi mcm nk p sebulan lagak nye..laki gak yg simple ak tgk..haha..

ko tgk la, brang2..byk tul bwaknye..haha

then, bertolak lah kami k Lumut, tiba jam 3,4 pagi..pergh awl giler...tp herannye ramai la gak kat jeti Lumut tu...ade yg dating, ade yg isap rokok, lepak2..kitowg penat n ngntok, xtau nk lepak mane..last2 sewa hotel 2 blik but 1 room tu ade la lam 6owg..so, tiap sowng cas lam 6hengget lebih jew..jimat kn???keh3..pastu, lam kul 9 tu kitowg pon nek la feri p Pulau Pangkor..taklimat oleh PIC ktowg lam feri tu..

bhgian ats feri..lepak smbil bergambar..(sape mabuk laut, sile trun k bwah k..keh3)

sampai j kat chalet "Pangkor Inn Chalet" name dia...smpai kat kaunter depan, da nmpk kolam sebesar kolam renang kanak2(kat kolam tu la byk kenangan kami tercipta)..pastu check in kat blik msing2..ak, sara, che n dila biasala 1 room..cannot separated ibart hydrogen bond..hihi...smpai je blik, bersihkn dri, then lena smpai zhor..pastu cari mknan, lapo kot(arga mknan lebey kureng shah alam, n.goreng pattaya = RM5)..ptg tu kitowg sewa bot 8 hengget sowang nek bot p pulau depan,,sbb nye pantai kat ctu xlandai, bahaya nk men..so, men la sepuas2 nye kat pulau dpn tu..best giler...water confident berjaya ak mahirkn...ingt lg kenangan kat kem Wilderness dlu..air laut da mcm sebati ngn jiwa ak..mermaid story..haha

mlm tu, pusing2 pulau..jln2 kat kedai2 depan tu..byk jual mkanan laut bakar..tp yg plng sedeynye, xde angin pntai...panas giler mlm tu..ak pon xphm nape xde angin pntai...menmbahkn ketidakcantikan(ade k word tu?) pemandangn kat pntai tu, ade la plak byk construction kat ctu..huhu..mmg xbrapa nk koww ah..huhu..pastu ak xjoin member2 ak karok..sbbnye xde mood, hp masuk air..tension tul(so, layan TV lam bilik jew..huhu).....

d next day, xtiviti pg terpksa buat sukaneka(sebb ujan renyai2, xjd nk snorkelling)..men bola tmpat pntai, lempar2 belon..mcm2 ah..smpai pkul 12..pastu lpas lunch, p snorkelling..d best program ever..ak dpt tgk sndri ikn2 tu berenang dpn mata ak..mmg best giler..dia bg roti kat kitowg suh bg mknan kat ikn tu..tgk ikn gigit2 roti kat tgn ak yg memegang roti tu, mmg best giler r..incredible feeling ever..hihi...pastu kn, bile kite diamkn dri, depakan tgn, ikn2 tu gigit kite..best sgt..hihi..tp beach boy tu kata jgn sentuh ikn2 tu, takut beracun, so ak tgk j la ikn tu berenang2...but dangerous thing is b careful with corals k..mmg tajam kalahkn pisau..sara kena corals tu, mmg abis kulit dia terkoyak..seram ak tgk..ak alhamdulillah, xde kena...

nek bot..sape mabuk laut, bware..kih3

belah mlm tu, mkn barbque...sedap tp sotong n udang rejected(as usual la)huhu..tp ikn ak balun 5 ekor..haha..tp ikn selar j pon..hoho..tu pon da kenyang...kitowg mkn smbil diirngi muzik, n nyanyian..hihi..mcm lam TV tu, yg ade owg nyanyi2 tu...keh3

                                                                                                               diiringi band smbil mkn..keh3

next day is balik smula shah alam...mmg kenangn xkn dilupekn ah..best ever had..hihi..:)..gonna miss dat memories..<3

frenz forever..<3

exam fever.....

assalamualaikum wbt..

from title, mesti dpt agk kan??musim2 bulan April, Mei ni..standard ah..musim exam bg pelajar2 IPT or IPTA..termasukla jua driku ni..xsangka, pejam celik pejam celik dah kali k 6 ak menempuh final paper d universiti tempatan tercinta ini..heh...never thought that almost 3 years i spend my quality time here..searching, grabbing much2 knowledge that i can hold n keep in..i'm wondering whether me back 3 years ago is still same with me now??hopefully not..hahaha..

after struggling ngn thesis, now i can breath peacefully without thinking of those creepy, scary, nitemare of dat PCR< extraction DNA< electrophoresis gel set<Gel Doc< blablabla...n all stuff of presentation, reading journals, and writing thesis..but now, still got to think about exam final..hoho..with low carry marks, i need to score in final..if not, confirm meet again d same face of lec next sem..wawa...nauzubillah...dont wan dat happen to me again..need to score or at least pass d subjek..huhu..aja aja fighting hanis!!!!u can do it!!!

my exam schedule like it dont wan me to waste any time..can u imagine how i wan to arrange my time??let me tell u, 28, 30, 3, 4, 5..dats d date..n d most frightening moments were d 1st paper n d last 3 papers..no gap..i'm so "alive"...hahaha..dats y i said no play2 time for me now..huhu..but most of dat i'm really greatfull now dat my thesis already gone, if not plus d tension of thesis n final exam, could make me one of the patient in "Tanjung Rambutan" i think...haha..dont say like dat hanis.."masin mulut tu kang"..no no no no...

so, last topic is i wanna share some of d way to release stress of the exam fever..of course we cannot run away from stress not only u but including myself..so, i'm sharing dis not only for u but also reminder to myself..

ok, now 1st of all kaji dlu ape yg membuatkn dri menjdi stress???adakah sbb member??adakah sebb situasi blajar x sesuai??adakah sebb mmg rs mlas dlm dri??adakah sebb rs xckup msa tuk blaja??adakah sebb ade komitmen lain yg perlu diutamakn??or adakah sebb lost hope, mood xde nk study..xde prasaan nk study..klu study pon bukn ley score pon..list kn dlu pe yg menyebabkn stress....

second, lpas2 list tu..kena la motivate diri..kenal pasti jenis motivation yg diperlukn..adakah motivasi jenis memujuk??ataupon jenis motivasi yg mencabar diri??or jenis motivasi yg memarahi diri??klu ak sndri, ak suka motivasi yg memujuk dri ak..tp ade sesetngah org tu, dia suka agresif, kata2 yg mencabar dri dia sndri mcm "ak xkn berjaya klu xdpt score exam kalu ni..org lain ley score, nape ak xbley"..like dat la..lebey kureng..or motivasi yg memarahi mcm "ko tu da la bengap, blaja xpndai plak tu..nape la exam yg simple ni ko xley score??bdoh betul la ko ni"..ade jugak owg rs termotivate bile owg len kata dia cam tu..well, it depends..

lpas tu, bile da rs di motivate tu, cpat2 la bukak buku study..hihi..motivasi ni kena slalu ade lam dri kite..bawu la kite akn slalu think positif, yakin dri n berjaya lam idup..

tp owg slalu kata "cakap mmg la senang, nk buat tu yg susah".. tu betul..mmg betul..dgn kesusahan yg kite buat tulah, baru kite dpt menikmati kemanisan kejayaan n hargainye..klu sume benda senang, mesti kite cepat lupekn n xmnghargai pon kejayaan kite dpt tu..tul x??

so, d last word for today is "ur life will not going anywhere if u r afraid to take d first step forward n dont look back wat u ve done coz u cannot change in d past (anys, 2011)."..

thesis dayyy...smile..=)

by looking at d title, of course da ley budget kn ape yg nk i story molly here..huhu..well, before dat, lets flashback to my thesis presentation yg i'm really scare of...

last monday nite..nope2..evening monday..i'm mock presentation in front of my sv..janji kul 3 but really dont sempat nk edit slide after i'm meeting my sv on 930 that morning..then, on 4pm plus2, baru 3 gadis ayu reaching at the doorstep of my sv room..hehehe..seb baik sv ku yg baik ati n really baikk la..xmarahkn kitowg..then, k.hellen start present, i'm after her last was mira..mmg unprepared..smpaikn doc yg kena bg ayt for me to present and spot question that might be asked..really gratefull with dat..hihi..syg my sv...

dat nite..mmg i'm fail to stay up..ingtkn nk stay la nk edit slide n prepare teks presentation..but as usual, xdpt jugak nk stay up nye..ttdoq..last2 seb baik kul 4pg tu tersedar..so, buatla teks ucapan sekejap but xsempat nk hapal la..memg kalut r compare ngan last sem..huhu..then, kul 8am went to d seminar room with dila..pakai baju biru n selendang biru..rembat kasut member..konon2 nk jga penampilan r..hihi

then, nk dekat jam 11 cam tu, its my turm..mmg berdebar thap ape da..cannot describe it..hoho..tp i'm done my best la kirenye even i'm not really satisfied wit it..but yg plg penting da abis..alhamdulillah...

i'm mess up!!!

aduaii..mngeluh lg..it no good la dear..but its really hectic u know dis couples of week..hidup ak lintang pukang sem ni..xtau la pe sbbnye..mungkin last sem, final year..ngn study ntah ke mana, fyp asyik unsucceed..but really gotta stand up!!bykkn kata2 positif nis!!!chayok2!!u can do dis..kata nk smbung master..dis baru deg..ape la..hoho..

ok, now start with my story..where did i stop last time eh???well, 1st about dinner..erm..bape rank nk bg ea..3.5 over 5 stars kot..not too good n not too bad..kitowg sem akhir buat persembahan medley songs..berlatih time pg ari dinner, atas bas nk p pahang, tgk seladang..hoho..msa berlatih tu, ade member ak nangis..mula2 dila..pastu sarah..ak pon turut sama nangis..ak pon xtau nape akhir2 ni ak emo..(pantang tul air mata ni nk kuar..gedik tul la..da x macho..hoho)..tp time dinner, mess up tul la..not spt ak harapkn..huhu..but ok la yg part last tu..ak suka..nk nangis jugak senarnye..hihi..pastu pe ag ea??pakaian ak??nnti ak upload pic..mahal kot..xpenah ak beli smhal tu..kak pon da ngepek da..baju bertunang dia dlu xsmhal baju ak tu..hihi..xpe, ak pkai another function nnti ea kak..jgn mara2..hihi..but ok la, if nk compare ngn 'pakcik' tu, baju ak kire murah r..dia kemeja pon nk da nk seratus lebey, belom sluar ag..hihi..ak da lengkap, ats bawah baru nk smpai seratus..hihi..ak pakai selendang n sandal rembatan member ak..yg ak beli just baju..yg len pinjm..hihi..tp yg lawaknye sndal ak tu besar, mmg trouble r ak mlm tu..saiz kaki member ak xsama plus ngn baju ak tu labuh sgt smpaikn terseret r kain tu..sandal ak kena tinggi lagi klu ak xnk potong baju tu..hihi...pastu p ngn motor, lg satu kes, ak bwak motor ngn ikat baju ak tu kat pinggang, pkai slipar jepon..haha..sebbnye baju tu labuh sgt nk terbang2 msa ak bwak motor plus sandal tu xley pakai time ak nk start moto n tukar gear..susah kot..hihi..pastu psal mknan plak ea..mkn ok jer..nk kata sedap sgt xde la..but syukur ape yg ade..hihi..abis diet ak kot even ari tu mmg xmkn pa pe..bergambar ngn member2 buat last time dinner..sronok gak tp ak bergmbar ngn geng ak jew..tu yg xsyok..ntah la..mls nk p kaco member2 lain..tu yg pic dinner xbyk gmbar member2 ak..huhuso, da abis da cter sal dinner..

 see??baju ak yg labuh semcm..hihi..

ini la mkanan ak mkn..mcm2 amik, spoil r diet ak ngn lemak, kolestrol..aduaiiiii...

now, fyp lak...huhu...penat la ak nk cter sal benda alah ni..huhu..da abis air mata, da abis kudrat..da abis semngat da ak sal benda ni..tp klu bg ak msa lg, insyaAllah ak akn usaha lg sampai berjaya..skwg ak just reda n tawakkal je ape nk jd time present tu nnti...dis tuesday..nnti ak update tentang pe yg jd..mcm miserable jew..but cant wait to end it..bak kata Miss Saizah..lec ak sowg tu..hihi...kdang2 murung bila pk bnda ni..kadang2 sedih, rs nk nangis,,kadang2 nyesal nape la fyp xsesenang owg lain but cpat2 istighfar..ade hikmahnye..always think dat way...kdang2 nk smack down jer taik gajah tu, pcr machine, gel elctrophoresis..bla bla bla..nape la xnk tolong ak dptkn result yg ok..kdang2 ak terpk gak nape la ak still xdpt2 even ak da berusaha till last day dah..ingtkn miracle happen but then frustrated..huhu..baru ak tau perasaan yg kecewa amat sgt..nk sama spt time ak fail ujian memandu 2taun lepas..but dis is more dan that..huhu..kecewa becinta pon xde la smpai gtu, still ley control ag emotion but kecewa yg ni, smpai ak nangis teresak2...tu mmg parah r...huhu..tp last2 ak mcm da redha pe yg bakal terjadi..da xde air mata mngalir..da xde kudrat nk pk pe lg patut ak buat..sv ak ok jew..dia baik..tiap kali ak jupe dia jew, ak rs tnang n bersemngat balik but she's always bz..so, cant depend on her too much..i understand dat..

i think dats it for now..ops b4 i forgot..i'm wonder what had happend to my 'teddybear'..why did he behave like dat to me??did i make some mistake?or did he got a problem??but xley cter kat ak??kdang2 ak pk, ak nk jugak jga ati dia, be rite side him whenever he feels need someone..but still i'm no best for him..cant do anything much for him..but whenever i feels down, need someone, he'll be beside me..huhu..so, what can i do to make him feel better???huhu

awk.....bila kite tension kite buat ape ea???

mggu ni mnggu tension sedunia..air mata pertama mengalir disebabkn FYP..i dont y i feel like dis..maybe becoz of rakan sperjuangan ku da dpt result..me??still terkontang kanting mencari di mana silap..sometimes, i feel y i must do dis experiment dis sem??y not masa cuti sem tu??lg byk msa yg sy ade n lg kurang tekanan..now??wit d failure of test neuro..other subjects yg perlukn komitmen jugak..asignment yg datang ibarat hujan lebat di musim tengkujuh..i feel regret..but i know i cant be like dis..there are so many reason y Allah SWT tetapkn sume ni..sy tau sy kena tabah..but, sometimes, ketabahan tu hilang bak dedaun kering ditiup angin...time tu la rs nk pecah otak memikirkn jln penyelesaian, air mata mula berguguran..hormon mula kacau bilau...then, syaitan mula merasuk fikiran, kije gile dalam pemikiran...Astagfirullahhalazim..

• selalunya bila awk tension, awk buat ape ea???orang kata makan boleh hilangkn tension??tp sy da gemok da...sy xley mkn, nnti makin gemok..duit pon cepat abis..agpon skwg ngah episod diet..huhu...

• ade jugak orang kata bile kite tension, kite menjerit..sy pon terpk nk buat cam tu..nk menjerit sekuat hati..arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..tp bukan kat cni..cni xde tempat sesuai la awk..nnti klu sy jerit kat cni, org kata sy gile lak, slamat masuk kat tanjung rambutan..sy normal wakk....

• ade lg org kta klu tension, kite p cari gduh ngan owg..laki biasanya cam tu la erk..tu sy tgk lam citer2 la..bile tension or sedey putus cinta je, terus bertumbuk n cari balah ngn owg..maybe ley ilangkn tension kot..tp sy pompuan wak, xkn sy nk buat cam tu..agpon mnyakitkn bdan je..tp penah gak tpkir nk buat cam tu..hihi

• ade owg kata lg klu tension, kite p shopping kat mall..abiskn duit..tu mmg kije owg pompuan..owg laki jrang buat in my opinion..kenapakah??hihi..sy pon penah terpk gak nk buat but, all my tension xkn ilang if sy buat cam tu..confirm r coz msalah duit akn timbul n lg satu, penatlah berjln2 kat mall nih..huhu

kalu sy, sy kata bila sy tension, sy nk cerita kat owg..sy nk ade pendgr yg setia..xpe la dia xkata pa pe pon, just dgr ape sy nk ckap..biar la sy sy ckap smbil nangis ke, marah2 k..jus plss be a good listener..them, after sy da calm down..then sy nk pendgr tu make me laugh..sbb sy tau, ketawa pengubat duka..just do anything yg boleh buat sy ketawa...but i know, its not easy to make people laugh...huhu...then, its ok if xberjaya, just berckap dgn sy, citer la pe benda skali pon..i just wan to hear voices..make me forget all those things dat make me tension...but dont ask me back about my problems..jus ignore it..i can settle it by ownself..

itu when, i have someone wit..but if sy xde sape2 yg ley sy hrap jd good listener, i'll do anything dat i feel right...itulah kije giler..if sy msih waras n akal mngwal, mybe sy akn pergi masjid mencari ketenangan..but if akal xdpt mngawal(which i hope never happen), sy mungkin akn motor laju2..full speed..

second way is, sy akn nangis puas2 lam bilik air(sbb confirm owg xkn tau..hehe..never allowed anyone know dat u r not happy..one of my principal), pastu smyg hajat k, doa byk2..baca Al-Quran..insyaAllah..fikiran sy akn tenang..then, tido..dont think about anything else..:)

begitula kebiasaannye ape yg sy buat bila tension, mood xde..or sedey yg amat...slamat beramal..hihihi