aduaii..mngeluh lg..it no good la dear..but its really hectic u know dis couples of week..hidup ak lintang pukang sem ni..xtau la pe sbbnye..mungkin last sem, final year..ngn study ntah ke mana, fyp asyik unsucceed..but really gotta stand up!!bykkn kata2 positif nis!!!chayok2!!u can do dis..kata nk smbung master..dis baru deg..ape la..hoho..
ok, now start with my story..where did i stop last time eh???well, 1st about dinner..erm..bape rank nk bg ea..3.5 over 5 stars kot..not too good n not too bad..kitowg sem akhir buat persembahan medley songs..berlatih time pg ari dinner, atas bas nk p pahang, tgk seladang..hoho..msa berlatih tu, ade member ak nangis..mula2 dila..pastu sarah..ak pon turut sama nangis..ak pon xtau nape akhir2 ni ak emo..(pantang tul air mata ni nk kuar..gedik tul la..da x macho..hoho)..tp time dinner, mess up tul la..not spt ak harapkn..huhu..but ok la yg part last tu..ak suka..nk nangis jugak senarnye..hihi..pastu pe ag ea??pakaian ak??nnti ak upload pic..mahal kot..xpenah ak beli smhal tu..kak pon da ngepek da..baju bertunang dia dlu xsmhal baju ak tu..hihi..xpe, ak pkai another function nnti ea kak..jgn mara2..hihi..but ok la, if nk compare ngn 'pakcik' tu, baju ak kire murah r..dia kemeja pon nk da nk seratus lebey, belom sluar ag..hihi..ak da lengkap, ats bawah baru nk smpai seratus..hihi..ak pakai selendang n sandal rembatan member ak..yg ak beli just baju..yg len pinjm..hihi..tp yg lawaknye sndal ak tu besar, mmg trouble r ak mlm tu..saiz kaki member ak xsama plus ngn baju ak tu labuh sgt smpaikn terseret r kain tu..sandal ak kena tinggi lagi klu ak xnk potong baju tu..hihi...pastu p ngn motor, lg satu kes, ak bwak motor ngn ikat baju ak tu kat pinggang, pkai slipar jepon..haha..sebbnye baju tu labuh sgt nk terbang2 msa ak bwak motor plus sandal tu xley pakai time ak nk start moto n tukar gear..susah kot..hihi..pastu psal mknan plak ea..mkn ok jer..nk kata sedap sgt xde la..but syukur ape yg ade..hihi..abis diet ak kot even ari tu mmg xmkn pa pe..bergambar ngn member2 buat last time dinner..sronok gak tp ak bergmbar ngn geng ak jew..tu yg xsyok..ntah la..mls nk p kaco member2 lain..tu yg pic dinner xbyk gmbar member2 ak..huhuso, da abis da cter sal dinner..
see??baju ak yg labuh semcm..hihi..
ini la mkanan ak mkn..mcm2 amik, spoil r diet ak ngn lemak, kolestrol..aduaiiiii...
now, fyp lak...huhu...penat la ak nk cter sal benda alah ni..huhu..da abis air mata, da abis kudrat..da abis semngat da ak sal benda ni..tp klu bg ak msa lg, insyaAllah ak akn usaha lg sampai berjaya..skwg ak just reda n tawakkal je ape nk jd time present tu nnti...dis tuesday..nnti ak update tentang pe yg jd..mcm miserable jew..but cant wait to end it..bak kata Miss Saizah..lec ak sowg tu..hihi...kdang2 murung bila pk bnda ni..kadang2 sedih, rs nk nangis,,kadang2 nyesal nape la fyp xsesenang owg lain but cpat2 istighfar..ade hikmahnye..always think dat way...kdang2 nk smack down jer taik gajah tu, pcr machine, gel elctrophoresis..bla bla bla..nape la xnk tolong ak dptkn result yg ok..kdang2 ak terpk gak nape la ak still xdpt2 even ak da berusaha till last day dah..ingtkn miracle happen but then frustrated..huhu..baru ak tau perasaan yg kecewa amat sgt..nk sama spt time ak fail ujian memandu 2taun lepas..but dis is more dan that..huhu..kecewa becinta pon xde la smpai gtu, still ley control ag emotion but kecewa yg ni, smpai ak nangis teresak2...tu mmg parah r...huhu..tp last2 ak mcm da redha pe yg bakal terjadi..da xde air mata mngalir..da xde kudrat nk pk pe lg patut ak buat..sv ak ok jew..dia baik..tiap kali ak jupe dia jew, ak rs tnang n bersemngat balik but she's always bz..so, cant depend on her too much..i understand dat..
i think dats it for now..ops b4 i forgot..i'm wonder what had happend to my 'teddybear'..why did he behave like dat to me??did i make some mistake?or did he got a problem??but xley cter kat ak??kdang2 ak pk, ak nk jugak jga ati dia, be rite side him whenever he feels need someone..but still i'm no best for him..cant do anything much for him..but whenever i feels down, need someone, he'll be beside me..huhu..so, what can i do to make him feel better???huhu
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