exam fever.....

assalamualaikum wbt..

from title, mesti dpt agk kan??musim2 bulan April, Mei ni..standard ah..musim exam bg pelajar2 IPT or IPTA..termasukla jua driku ni..xsangka, pejam celik pejam celik dah kali k 6 ak menempuh final paper d universiti tempatan tercinta ini..heh...never thought that almost 3 years i spend my quality time here..searching, grabbing much2 knowledge that i can hold n keep in..i'm wondering whether me back 3 years ago is still same with me now??hopefully not..hahaha..

after struggling ngn thesis, now i can breath peacefully without thinking of those creepy, scary, nitemare of dat PCR< extraction DNA< electrophoresis gel set<Gel Doc< blablabla...n all stuff of presentation, reading journals, and writing thesis..but now, still got to think about exam final..hoho..with low carry marks, i need to score in final..if not, confirm meet again d same face of lec next sem..wawa...nauzubillah...dont wan dat happen to me again..need to score or at least pass d subjek..huhu..aja aja fighting hanis!!!!u can do it!!!

my exam schedule like it dont wan me to waste any time..can u imagine how i wan to arrange my time??let me tell u, 28, 30, 3, 4, 5..dats d date..n d most frightening moments were d 1st paper n d last 3 papers..no gap..i'm so "alive"...hahaha..dats y i said no play2 time for me now..huhu..but most of dat i'm really greatfull now dat my thesis already gone, if not plus d tension of thesis n final exam, could make me one of the patient in "Tanjung Rambutan" i think...haha..dont say like dat hanis.."masin mulut tu kang"..no no no no...

so, last topic is i wanna share some of d way to release stress of the exam fever..of course we cannot run away from stress not only u but including myself..so, i'm sharing dis not only for u but also reminder to myself..

ok, now 1st of all kaji dlu ape yg membuatkn dri menjdi stress???adakah sbb member??adakah sebb situasi blajar x sesuai??adakah sebb mmg rs mlas dlm dri??adakah sebb rs xckup msa tuk blaja??adakah sebb ade komitmen lain yg perlu diutamakn??or adakah sebb lost hope, mood xde nk study..xde prasaan nk study..klu study pon bukn ley score pon..list kn dlu pe yg menyebabkn stress....

second, lpas2 list tu..kena la motivate diri..kenal pasti jenis motivation yg diperlukn..adakah motivasi jenis memujuk??ataupon jenis motivasi yg mencabar diri??or jenis motivasi yg memarahi diri??klu ak sndri, ak suka motivasi yg memujuk dri ak..tp ade sesetngah org tu, dia suka agresif, kata2 yg mencabar dri dia sndri mcm "ak xkn berjaya klu xdpt score exam kalu ni..org lain ley score, nape ak xbley"..like dat la..lebey kureng..or motivasi yg memarahi mcm "ko tu da la bengap, blaja xpndai plak tu..nape la exam yg simple ni ko xley score??bdoh betul la ko ni"..ade jugak owg rs termotivate bile owg len kata dia cam tu..well, it depends..

lpas tu, bile da rs di motivate tu, cpat2 la bukak buku study..hihi..motivasi ni kena slalu ade lam dri kite..bawu la kite akn slalu think positif, yakin dri n berjaya lam idup..

tp owg slalu kata "cakap mmg la senang, nk buat tu yg susah".. tu betul..mmg betul..dgn kesusahan yg kite buat tulah, baru kite dpt menikmati kemanisan kejayaan n hargainye..klu sume benda senang, mesti kite cepat lupekn n xmnghargai pon kejayaan kite dpt tu..tul x??

so, d last word for today is "ur life will not going anywhere if u r afraid to take d first step forward n dont look back wat u ve done coz u cannot change in d past (anys, 2011)."..

thesis dayyy...smile..=)

by looking at d title, of course da ley budget kn ape yg nk i story molly here..huhu..well, before dat, lets flashback to my thesis presentation yg i'm really scare of...

last monday nite..nope2..evening monday..i'm mock presentation in front of my sv..janji kul 3 but really dont sempat nk edit slide after i'm meeting my sv on 930 that morning..then, on 4pm plus2, baru 3 gadis ayu reaching at the doorstep of my sv room..hehehe..seb baik sv ku yg baik ati n really baikk la..xmarahkn kitowg..then, k.hellen start present, i'm after her last was mira..mmg unprepared..smpaikn doc yg kena bg ayt for me to present and spot question that might be asked..really gratefull with dat..hihi..syg my sv...

dat nite..mmg i'm fail to stay up..ingtkn nk stay la nk edit slide n prepare teks presentation..but as usual, xdpt jugak nk stay up nye..ttdoq..last2 seb baik kul 4pg tu tersedar..so, buatla teks ucapan sekejap but xsempat nk hapal la..memg kalut r compare ngan last sem..huhu..then, kul 8am went to d seminar room with dila..pakai baju biru n selendang biru..rembat kasut member..konon2 nk jga penampilan r..hihi

then, nk dekat jam 11 cam tu, its my turm..mmg berdebar thap ape da..cannot describe it..hoho..tp i'm done my best la kirenye even i'm not really satisfied wit it..but yg plg penting da abis..alhamdulillah...

i'm mess up!!!

aduaii..mngeluh lg..it no good la dear..but its really hectic u know dis couples of week..hidup ak lintang pukang sem ni..xtau la pe sbbnye..mungkin last sem, final year..ngn study ntah ke mana, fyp asyik unsucceed..but really gotta stand up!!bykkn kata2 positif nis!!!chayok2!!u can do dis..kata nk smbung master..dis baru deg..ape la..hoho..

ok, now start with my story..where did i stop last time eh???well, 1st about dinner..erm..bape rank nk bg ea..3.5 over 5 stars kot..not too good n not too bad..kitowg sem akhir buat persembahan medley songs..berlatih time pg ari dinner, atas bas nk p pahang, tgk seladang..hoho..msa berlatih tu, ade member ak nangis..mula2 dila..pastu sarah..ak pon turut sama nangis..ak pon xtau nape akhir2 ni ak emo..(pantang tul air mata ni nk kuar..gedik tul la..da x macho..hoho)..tp time dinner, mess up tul la..not spt ak harapkn..huhu..but ok la yg part last tu..ak suka..nk nangis jugak senarnye..hihi..pastu pe ag ea??pakaian ak??nnti ak upload pic..mahal kot..xpenah ak beli smhal tu..kak pon da ngepek da..baju bertunang dia dlu xsmhal baju ak tu..hihi..xpe, ak pkai another function nnti ea kak..jgn mara2..hihi..but ok la, if nk compare ngn 'pakcik' tu, baju ak kire murah r..dia kemeja pon nk da nk seratus lebey, belom sluar ag..hihi..ak da lengkap, ats bawah baru nk smpai seratus..hihi..ak pakai selendang n sandal rembatan member ak..yg ak beli just baju..yg len pinjm..hihi..tp yg lawaknye sndal ak tu besar, mmg trouble r ak mlm tu..saiz kaki member ak xsama plus ngn baju ak tu labuh sgt smpaikn terseret r kain tu..sandal ak kena tinggi lagi klu ak xnk potong baju tu..hihi...pastu p ngn motor, lg satu kes, ak bwak motor ngn ikat baju ak tu kat pinggang, pkai slipar jepon..haha..sebbnye baju tu labuh sgt nk terbang2 msa ak bwak motor plus sandal tu xley pakai time ak nk start moto n tukar gear..susah kot..hihi..pastu psal mknan plak ea..mkn ok jer..nk kata sedap sgt xde la..but syukur ape yg ade..hihi..abis diet ak kot even ari tu mmg xmkn pa pe..bergambar ngn member2 buat last time dinner..sronok gak tp ak bergmbar ngn geng ak jew..tu yg xsyok..ntah la..mls nk p kaco member2 lain..tu yg pic dinner xbyk gmbar member2 ak..huhuso, da abis da cter sal dinner..

 see??baju ak yg labuh semcm..hihi..

ini la mkanan ak mkn..mcm2 amik, spoil r diet ak ngn lemak, kolestrol..aduaiiiii...

now, fyp lak...huhu...penat la ak nk cter sal benda alah ni..huhu..da abis air mata, da abis kudrat..da abis semngat da ak sal benda ni..tp klu bg ak msa lg, insyaAllah ak akn usaha lg sampai berjaya..skwg ak just reda n tawakkal je ape nk jd time present tu nnti...dis tuesday..nnti ak update tentang pe yg jd..mcm miserable jew..but cant wait to end it..bak kata Miss Saizah..lec ak sowg tu..hihi...kdang2 murung bila pk bnda ni..kadang2 sedih, rs nk nangis,,kadang2 nyesal nape la fyp xsesenang owg lain but cpat2 istighfar..ade hikmahnye..always think dat way...kdang2 nk smack down jer taik gajah tu, pcr machine, gel elctrophoresis..bla bla bla..nape la xnk tolong ak dptkn result yg ok..kdang2 ak terpk gak nape la ak still xdpt2 even ak da berusaha till last day dah..ingtkn miracle happen but then frustrated..huhu..baru ak tau perasaan yg kecewa amat sgt..nk sama spt time ak fail ujian memandu 2taun lepas..but dis is more dan that..huhu..kecewa becinta pon xde la smpai gtu, still ley control ag emotion but kecewa yg ni, smpai ak nangis teresak2...tu mmg parah r...huhu..tp last2 ak mcm da redha pe yg bakal terjadi..da xde air mata mngalir..da xde kudrat nk pk pe lg patut ak buat..sv ak ok jew..dia baik..tiap kali ak jupe dia jew, ak rs tnang n bersemngat balik but she's always bz..so, cant depend on her too much..i understand dat..

i think dats it for now..ops b4 i forgot..i'm wonder what had happend to my 'teddybear'..why did he behave like dat to me??did i make some mistake?or did he got a problem??but xley cter kat ak??kdang2 ak pk, ak nk jugak jga ati dia, be rite side him whenever he feels need someone..but still i'm no best for him..cant do anything much for him..but whenever i feels down, need someone, he'll be beside me..huhu..so, what can i do to make him feel better???huhu