i win or he win??

one week had passed..one week gak last meet with my 'sweet' prof..one week gak still ak ade tuk siapkn 'to do list' ak..wa3..hectic la next week..hu3..actually after meeting wit prof last week, baru ak sedar ak berada di mana skrg, n ape patut ak buat n ape is xtually my target dok cni..hu3..terlmbatkah bgku??insyaAllah x kn??fighting nis!!so, berborak2 la ngn my en.Tedy, dia kata demi utk kebaikn bersama, kami hanye contct one time a week, iaitu pd hari weekend shj..so, ak go on wit dat deal koz mmg ngah sempit pon skrg..ak xpk lain dah..ak pk duit jerrr..ha3..tp everyday, Ym still on..cett, xley blah..huahaha...biasala org ngah lovey dovey..cesss

then, critanye ak wat deal ngn beliau..disebbkn beliau mahu mngajakku keluar date for ujung mnggu ni, so, ak kenala siapkn 'to do list' ak b4 prof smpai..sebaiknye sebelom ak kluar date (ahad)..walaupon nk jupe prof ari selasa..kirenye, bersusah payah dahulu, berjimba2 kemudian..reward urself la beb..huahaha..so, by hook or by crook seriously need to finish dat 'list' k..meh nk catit ckit pe dia list ak,,,sile lihat di bwah yer puan2 n tuan2..keh3:-

1. prepare file for prof
2. costing every year
3. extend ethic-refer RMI
4. ELISA kit borrow from Saf
5. call new patient
6. gantt chart-refer Co-Sv
7. minute meeting report
8. find d old sample - refer kak tikah
9. fullfilled LPO, PO bla2 form
10. literature search-exon
11. Elisa learn

from 11 listed item, ak da berjaya siapkn 3 je list..wa3..sempatkah ak menang deal ni??xleh3..by hook by crook ak kena menang gak..he gotta make one of my wish come true..he3..dats d present n if i did not finish it, gotta kena denda..ak plak kena tunaikn 1 hasrat dia..wa3..xnk2,,so Hanis, pe ag??ko kn pantang dicabar kn??kena gak sahut cabaran nih..tp kn, byk2 benda listed tu, call patient ak plg xsuka..hu3..xreti la nk deal ngn org..communication skill ak mmg horrible..ho3..need to learn fast my dear..hu3

p/s: tp yg sedihnye mcm beliau xdpt j kuar ngn beta ari ahad ni sbb beliau ade date ngan member2 dia..hu3..
tp kn, rupe nye beliau mempunyai rs jelez gak ea??xtau la plak ak..ingt xde perasaan..he3..ade gak xsecure tu..ho3..tp kn awak, awak tau kn kite <3 kat awk..=P

big day in my life..

27th of October 2011.. Graduation day..holding d title of Alumni..d day dat i was fully completed my degree..Ma, adik da buktikan yg adik mampu masuk U n berjaya dpatkn segulung ijazah, adik da berjaya dapatkn ape yang Ma harapkn..if u r still here, this degree holder is just special for u..must u be crying to see me on d stage kn??i jus know it..but now, sitting at on d 'tikar sejadah', pray for ur safety 'there' talk to Allah swt, reciting Al-quran for ur 'bekalan amalan'.. hanya itu yg mampu Adik lakukan skrg..

cam ne nk cerita eh??too much story to be told but now dont know how to start wit..erm..mula2 kite cter psal absentees of my konvokesyen k..absentees nye adalah:-

• en. wan ahmad (we)
• pn. zainaba (mama)
• wan nor aliza (kak)
• en. hanafi (ayh ngah)
• en. anuar (paksu)
• pn. norasyikin (maksu)

nama2 di ats adalah org yg ak jemput utk dtg k mjlis ak..even mmg ak berharap pon diorg akn mai...reasonnye adalah:-

• we, mama n kak sbb sibuk ngan persiapan kak nk kawin..lgpon ak tau agk susah nk mai dr klntn..sape nk amik, nk overnite kat ne kn??so, ak mmg xnk nyusahkn diorg..diorg dtg, ak epi n syukur n if x mai pon ak xde la kisah mane pon sbb ak da phm..lgpon, graduation day is not something yg family ak pk "wajib kena attend" sbb time kak long ak n abg ak konvo dlu2 pon parent ak xp..so kirenye, konvo j pon, des nothing much la..so, xkesah pon..=)
• ayh ngah ak xdpt mai sbb dia kata dia ade hal ari khamis tu, n ak pon xnk disturb dia..so, its ok..=)
• paksu n maksu lak ak sj je ajk..mmg xde harap pon diorg nk mai sbb depa dok klntan gak..jd confirm2 r susah nk mai kn..so, no hal la xmai pon..=)

so, konklusionnye, yg mai hanye la..

muhammad alqaf bin azmi (en. Tedy)..tu pon, mybe sbb dia kesian kot kat ak sbb xde org pon dtg konvo ak..so, kirenye dia pengganti family ak..ak mmg xde la berharap pon dia mai (dlm hati, perghh ari2 berharap dia dpt dtg, tp sbb xmo berharap lebih, kang kecewa, so xde la tunjuk sgt suh dia mai..up to him)..tp klu family ak mai n dia pon mai, ak la org plg bahagia..leh la bg dia jupe terus parent ak..huahaha..cantekk x idea ak??tp harapan tggal harapan j la yer..xpe la..mybe ade hikmah..ho3

second time ak konvo..tp yg first konvo dlu xrasmi r..MRSM punye konvo, time tu kak ak j yg mai tgk..time tu pon ak xberharap sesapa mai tgk sbb ak phm..so, kirenye dis is d first time konvo scra rasmi nye..proses pengambilan jubah adlah satu proses yg amat memenatkn n men'stress'kan ak..klu bleh lpas2 ni time ak konvo lg(insyaAllah), ak xnk da beratur amik jubah..rela ak upah org amikkn jubah utk ak..seriously, thousands people beratur amik jubah pd hari yg sama..can u imagine d non-stop queue dat u ve to line up..

d next day, ak p sndri..jupe Mr. Tedy kat KL Sentral..Sara amik kat KTM Pdang Jawa..(thnks to her..really byk hutang budi ak ngn dia..xterblas kot..bukn kat dia je..family dia pon..hu3..xtau da nk bls camne..hanye Allah swt j mampu bls Sara..erm..hu3)..n bersalah kat kak Tikah sbb last minute plan p ngn dia cancel..hu3..ak xtau nk ckap cm ne ngn dia..serba salah pon ade tp Alhamdulillah dia memahami n walaupon kena marah ckit tp thnks kak Tikah for understanding my childish behaviour..he3..n sorry again for d cancellation..ho3..

pergila ak bersama ngn Mr. Tedy k Shah Alam,..bile jupe dia kat KL Sentral tu,xbudget pon dia bwak adiah tuk konvo ak..seriously, ak xberharap pa pe pon..dia mai konvo ak pon da kire syukur da..dah la ari sblum tu dia leh lg wat lawak yg xdpt dtg sbb mybe cuti dia xlulus..lg la ak sedey..hu2..smpaikn ak p usha member dia tnye tul2 sal cuti dia, ingtkn dia tipu bile dia kata dia dpt cuti n dpt mai..sbb ak xnk berhrap lebih..(serius, sikap ak ialah ak lebih suke expect yg benda yg plg buruk akn berlaku, so then ak leh get ready wit any bad things happen..xde la ak nk frust menonggeng kan..ho3)..but then, ak kena tipu lak ngn member dia..cess, mmg xley sekongkol la ngn ak dak Pqah tu..ho3..tp xpe la..benda da lepas, niat dia pon baik..ak pon bukn la jenis pendam n simpan ati sorang..forgive n forget..he3..

d present are..ehem3..

• my most fav thing..guess??gebuuu..montelll..gemokkkk..a.k.a Teddy Bear..yeaaaay!!!bertambah koleksi bntal peluk ak..huahaha..but then, dis is d most spesel one..keh3..tp once again, ak xtau mampu bertahan bape lama kegebuan, kecomelan, kegemukan teddy bear tu..depends on tuan yg bg kot..klu tuan dia tu xwat ak sakit ati, selamatla teddy bear tersebut..
• unexpected thing, lain dr yg ak budget..xsangka lak Mr. Tedy pon tau taste ak cm ne..ho3..satu set rantai perak skali ngn subang..speechless, ak xbudget pon akn dpt byk present lam 1 msa..hu2..sedih n terharu..dia bg tedy bear tu pon ak dok pk da bape la blnje dia abiskn nih..aish, bersalah ak wase..pastu tmbah ngn rantai lak..hu3..i'll promise, i'll treasure it Mr. Tedy..hu3
• lastly coklat to share with cik Siti Sarah..3jenis coklat..lollipop,toblerone n lupe da 1 ag..bersama ngn key chain hp teddy bear comel..da slmat mkn ngn Cik Sara, n bear tu ak wat sngkut kat phone..he3..

adiah2 awk, sy akn treasure them..=) 

bile smpai kat cna, ak tggal kn en. Tedy ak tu ngn family Sara..pndai2 la dia survive..he3..i know dat i can trust him..keh3..pastu ak n member2 ak pon bersiap2 la..pkai jubah, beratur n bla bla bla..no giliran ak 309, so antra terawal la..overall 1325 xsilap ak la..stat dr kul 2 lebih2 cam tu, abis kul 5 lebih2 cam tu..cuak ah time amik skrol(bukn skrol senarnye tp mcm buku file cm tu..xtau la pe benda namenye) kat pro canselor..tp ak go on gak..jln ngn penuh keyakinan, maniskn muka n senyum n amik n blah..jln ngn penuh tata tertib..keh3..dah la x p time raptai..mmg ikut org depan je..tgk diorg amik cam ne..then, tamat sudeh episod konvo ak..slepas bergmbar2 ngn kwn2..tp yg sedeynye xsume member ak dpt jupe..ramai giler org..da mcm semut da ak tgk..huahaha..pastu masa mghrib baru la bertolak pulang..singgah KL sentral, mkn2 ngn En. Tedy, pastu baru la pulang ke rumah d Sg Buloh..=) 

a huge applause n spesel thanks:-

• to en radzi rahmat sbb sudi mnjemput sy di stesen komuter..follow sy dr blakang ngn motor sbb sy takut bwak motor sorng2 pulang k kolej kediaman..tp xsangka plak dia bwak geng dia skali..berkonvoi la ak 4 buah motor, ngn 8 org dak laki..ho3..my bodyguards..he3..thnks guys..=)
• very special thanks to Mr. Tedy sbb sudi dtg konvokesyen sy, kehadiranmu amat berharga(tp klu title kite di'upgrade' lg berharga..i tggu konv master i plak yer Mr. Tedy tuk tukar title tu..he3)..n sbb bg adiah yg x kupinta, n x kuharapkn..smpaikn sy speechless n never thought dat u r so romantic (must i say dis word??blushingg..hu3)..time ksih byk2 tau awk..sy <3 awk..

kite terharu sgt2 ngn awk..hu3

• to Sarah n family, very big2 thanks n unrepay debt..rs syukur sgt2 kenal mu Sarah..slalu tolong ak..family mu pon sama..hu3..ak da xtau nk bls budi sepmu cam ne..ngn mak mu belikn bunga tuk ak..ngn bg tumpang kete..p amik, p antar k komuter n budi2 sebelom2 nih..hu3..insyaAllah, klu mu susah time ak senang, ak tolong mu stkat mana ak leh tolong..hu3..jasamu akn dikenang smpai bile2 sarah..hu3..

time kasih to sarah n family

• to my family kat kg..sy tau family sy mesti frust sbb xleh mai sbb time master nnti, insyaAllah diorg nk mai..sy phm ade kesulitan xleh mai..n sy tau diorg doakan sy selamat2 sume nye..time kasih buat arwah ma yg lahirkn Adik, besarkn, berikan ksih syg, didik Adik..n tuk We yg susah pyah cri rezeki tuk jaga, sara belajr..sume kejayaan Adik dpt bukn tuk adk sorg je..insyaAllah, adk xkn lupekn jasa sume org yg susah pyah tolong adk selama ni..adk syg korang sume..lov u oll..=)
• lastly, to all yg terlibat scra langsung or tidak..klu da pa pe xpuas ati ngn sy, kite bincang luar blog eh..he3..=)

p/s: ape la nk bg kat en. Tedy time dia konvo eh??i'm thinking n planning..ho3

updated...

meh kite amik penyapu, mop, duster and stuff yg same waktu dgn nye tuk sapu sawang2 y pnuh kat blog ak nih..ha3..lame kot xupdate stories, xde mood xtually, mls nk mngarang n xde masa sgt..tp sbbkn jelez tgk sume member ak update stories, so, ak dgn pnuh sedaya upaya merajinkn tgn tuk menaip sambil tggu agar2 ak msak..ha3..(bleh diterime k??ho3)..

well, d story begins here..dlm buku cerita kanak2 zaman dolu2 ak baca dia tulis lagu ni nk mula story, so ak ciplak la ea..(kena buat citation nih, nnti kena saman..ho3)..(Cinderella, 1950)

"Once upon a time, there was a happy-go-lucky girl lived in a small town in d middle of a well-known city. The girl was an optimistic person(katanye member gewe ak..). She lived with her closed friend to finished her task dat she decided to get involve with. Although she was only in her sweet 21 years old, but her face look older than dat(ak rs sbb ak bergaul ngn org lebih tua kot..hopefully when i gets older, my face still younger..awet mude..ha3).  In d middle of her task, she gets lots n lots of experiences, and got to hang on to finish her task..(sbb motto ak skrg ialah "finished what u have started and be enjoy wit ur work"..so, kirenye if ak tension thap dewa skalipon, i need to enjoy jugak..sbb life cannot b turn back..keep on going, so that, there's nothing will u make u regret after dis..he3). So, conclusion of d story, u need to keep on reading dis page to will happen to d future of dis girl. The love, life, studying and oll stuff dat will happen to dis girl. Stay turned guys..he3"

Baru aku tau:

• how to pump air of ur car tire -  u know dat gurls are very poor at this mechanic stuff. All they know is how to ride it, use it but never think the maintenance of all dis thing. So do I, baru ak tau y mmg tercatit kat tayar kete max pressure yg dia leh terima..klu mcm kete Kelisa Sara, 44psi = 300kpa. But jgn la plak bubuh se max yg mungkin. Just from range of 28psi-35psi, da ok da kot..but make sure dat yg angin tayar depan more than tyre blakang. sbb depan is more heavy as d engine give more weight. so, baru ak tau.

• how to write meeting minutes..1st time ak become d minutes writer meeting between me and all the supervisors and researchers. Perghhh..mmg rs nk beli time tu jugak recorder..record ape yg diorg ckap..xsempat kot..then, got d format n all stuff..

• mcm mana nk buat agar2 santan yg ade 2 lapis tu..yg biasa org jual time bulan2 pose..rupenye senang jer..even klu guna santan serbuk pon leh buat tau..cume kacau telur n serbuk santan n air, pastu masuk je lam agar2 tu..tggu mendidih, pastu keraskn..siap..he3

• jalan drp sg buloh nk p ke shah alam..by car n motorbike..but need to practice more sbb still xbape nk ingt ag..ho3
• jalan drp sg buloh ke Giant Kota Damansara..ni hasil drp ak jln2 ngn kak tikah..so, dpt ler ingt jln..senang je upenye..nnti nk blja p d curve n one utama la plak..he3

ak rs ckup stkat tu je la kot..tetiba ak teringt esk ak meeting ngn Dr. Hoh(co-SV ak nk bincang sal budgetting), ak xprepare ag..wa3..da ngntok..cam ne nih..ho3

till next time..da..

p/s: Mr.Tedy, take good care of urself tau..dont b tension2 in ur work..n thnks

degree..master..PHD???

PHD = Permanent Head Damage = Pizza Hut Delivery (katanye Co-Supervisor aku)..he3..xtau la ak komen ape..keh3..

tapi yg sebetulnye adalah Ph.D = a doctorate of philosophy..berjayakah ak nk dpatkn title tu??buat master ni pon rs da nk tunggang terbalik da..he3..tp bak kata org, bile da decide tu, keep on going..mesti ade hikmah kn sbb ape Allah SWT bg kat kite benda tu..so, believe in Him..Dia tahu ape yg terbaik tuk kite..so, keep on going k..(xtually bukn benda ni ak nk ckap senarnye..he3)

d real topic is, ak nk cter sal program master ak kat cni..cam ni ceritanye, bile ak tgk balik diari ak buat msa darjah 6 dolu2 kan, mmg lam plan ak nk smbung master ni..tp samada ak kawin dlu or smbung dlu..so, konklusi mmg ak smbung dlu..he3..tp seriously mmg unplanned la waktu deg ak nk smbung..sbb tu, duit PTPTN mmg ak xsave pon..hu3..(nyesal giler..tu la pngajaran yg plg ak dpt bab2 duit..simpan time tgh kaye..nnti bile da sesak mcm ni, mula la serabut pk kat mane nk cilup duit..hu3)..

ak bersyukur sgt2 ak bleh adapt kat cni, even batch ak sumenye ak xkenal..sume budak MLT (medical lab technologist, seriously xpenah ak dengr ade koz tu kat puncak alam)..tp Alhamdulillah, diorg ni sgt2 mesra, so dgn cepatnye ak leh adapt ngn diorg..tp yg kureng syoknye, ramai la plak laki dr pompuan, dr 9 orang yg dpt, 3 org j pompuan..so, pndai2 la ak adapt..keh3..but dey all really sporting..credits to Pyan a.k.a Sufian Hamid (jiran ak kat workstation, muka mcm budak2..ak konfius dia tua or muda dr ak..ha3..really admire doraemon..), Radzey a.k.a Radzi Ahmad (pakar komputer, easy to mintak tolong n sporting amat, ni details on him, ni pon ak konfius muda or tua dr ak..ho3), Famy, Fazli, Radzi Rahmat a.k.a Double R, Safrizal (diorg ni pon ramah gak..kirenye ak leh wat kawan la..he3)..dats ol d guys..now d gurls lak ade 2 org jek, Hanis Saimin (dia pon name hanis gak, so kirenye ak xley nk dipanggil hanis, si dak Pyan n Fazli tukar name ak jd Wanis..ikut korunk la..i xkesah asalkn jgn pggil pelik2 da la ea..) n Ajie a.k.a Nura'zimaturrahmah (sorry if spelling not rite)..diorg ni baik n ak ley adapt ngn diorg..suke2..=)..n also to mazni n faezah, really nice to know u oll..hope lots of memories will tercipta when we oll complete dis master deg..Aminnnn....

next grateful was d senior is pretty nice..esp sorang ni..ak pggil dia kak tikah (ade post sal dia lam entry ak b4 dis)..ni details on her (sorry kak tikah, promoting ur blog..he3)..at first i thought bad of her..first impression dat i had on her is "kerek nye akak nih, cam ne la ak nk mintak tolong nih..hu3"..but after a week i knew her, she's really cool..its like if "xkenal maka xcinta"..cam tu la..seriously really grateful to her, byk ilmu n maklumat ak dpt dr dia..if she's not around, mybe terkapai2 gak kami2 sume..he3..so, if she read dis, i would like to thanks her very much, really appreciate wat u ve done, n hope u will keep it..nnti sy pon nk jd mcm akak if ade junior baru masuk nnti..he3..n to kakak2 senior yg lain pon, diorg byk gak membantu..trima ksih gak tuk diorg..(kak farah, akak dedey, kak suhana, kak Illa, kak Remey, kak Wani, kak Yati, kak Zana n others..)

dats oll dat i wanna share as i've been a month n plus2 here..got to adapt really quick (matila ak if Prof tau ak still merangkak ag nk adapt..ho3)..proposal need to finish, LR is on going, labwork still mastering, lots2 more need to learn..

p/s: needs to understand guys i think..so dat no more heartbreak..ho3..

first time after declare...

yesterday it was..d first time we meet after i know his feeling..its had been 2 years that i didn't meet him..perasaan usah ckap r..sume ade..bercampur baur..seb baik xkena heart attack..ha3..how i'm gonna start eh??well, kitrg decide nk jupe lam last week r koz ak tnye dia bila nk jupe..then, he said that a.s.a.p la bcoz nnti dia nk wat part time, so takut xde msa nk jupe nnti..ak pon pk punye pk..ujung mggu ni la kirenye..sbb dis friday(d next week), ak nk p beraya umh kak tikah(senior ak kat sg buloh)..sabtu ahad myb nk rilek2 je..then, it was decided..ari ahad, koz ari sabtu msing2 ade hal..ak nk p jupe reen n fatin, dia lak nk p beraya umh member dia..so, ahad is d day..

   

      perasaan da xsabar da..tp hari dilalui ngn biasa2 je(kontrol yg mane ptut)..hi3..pastu bila ari sbtu menjelang, ak hang out ngn kak tikah n kak wani(member kak tikah, now my member also) kat mid valley..lepak kat MPH, dr kul 12 smpai kul 4..kagum x??ak mmg spesies hantu buku gak r..agpon kat MPH tu, syok r suasana nk bca buku selain dr KINOKUNIYA(kat KLCC)..dan memandangkn ak xde duit nk beli buku skrg, so, spend all my time reading d books..tp ak berjaya abiskn 1 buku je pon..ha3..panduan becinta..tajuk dia "semurni kasih Adam, setulus cinta Hawa" kot..lupe da..but d story relate to kajian laki n pompuan n jugak ade info from Al-Quran..so, drpd buku tu, ak dpt 1 info ni..kite ni becinta ade 4 stage sebenarnye..xkesah la bg yg msih bercinta or psangan da kawin..

• stage 1 (tak mencintai n tak peduli)

• ni masa mula2 kenal psngan..kirenye kite n dia just biasa2 j..xkesah pon sal dia..dia hal dia kite hal kite....

• stage 2 (tak mencintai tp peduli)

• situasi ni pabila dia da jd memebr rapat kite da..kite care psal dia, slalu amik tau sal dia tp kite xcintakn dia..kirenye lam prose mngenali la kot..hi3

• stage 3 (mencintai n peduli)

• ni pabila dilamun cinta..mmg tangkap cintun abis r..tahap cemburu, tahap syg melebihi segalanye..berada di stage ni..ini adalah stage bhaya r..salah skit j, mmg mnguji..kontrol psagan pon kat stage ni gak, kite kureng percaya kat psngan kite..(ak skrg brada di stage ni kot..sbb ak still rs kureng pecaya kat dia tp wat bodoh je..doa2 mudah2an xde pe yg teruk terjadi..hu3)

• stage 4 (mencintai tp tak peduli)

• thap ni adalah thap yg paling secure..sbb kite da mmg pecaya 100% kat pasangan kite..kite da leh let go da dia..tp thap kesetiaan tu mmg berada thap plg tggi..kirenye dia percaya yg kite setia kat dia n sebaliknye..kite xpeduli sal dia mksudnye kite da xkontrol dia but we do really lov him..

pastu, bile da abis lepak, date la plak ngn reen..updating stories(as usual for d gurls but guys also like updating stories..info from my mr.tedy..ha3) ..talk2 til 7Pm, jupe fatin lak..talk2 lagi, pastu last2 after mgrib ketemu balik ngan kak tikah n kak wani..about 9.30PM ktrg pon balik la..he3

mlm tu kalut ak pk, nk pkai baju ape la..nk pkai tudung cam ne la..aish..susah tul bile nk appearance menarik dpn org kite syg nih..(mcm p interview jupe mak mertua lak..ho3)..so, last2 pakai je blouse(ak rembat from my sis), jeans(mmg lam pemikiran pon..), selendang(rembat sarah punye), sandal pon sarah punye(sbb sandal ak da mcm nk putus, xkn nk pkai sport shoes lak, xmsuk la ngn tema ke'lady'an ak ari tu..ha3)..mlm tu xbape lena nk tido (ak slalu gtu, if ade benda penting esknye, mula la bwak lam mimpi pastu confirm xlena tido or dpt nitemare..h03)..lpas subuh, terus da xtido da..habiskn masa online, basuh baju, bla bla bla..last2 lam kul 11 ak, sarah, kak zana n kak yati pon p la ke destinasi date ak..ONE UTAMA..(pe mcm??ramai x bodyguard ak??tp last2 jln berdua gak ngn Mr.tedy tu..ho3)..

        then, bile da smpai tu..ehem3..mula la berpeluh2 tgn ak..berdebar giler..xtau nk kata pe..jupe di aras 2 kat wing mane ntah kat one utama tu..sara yg first perasan kehadiran dia..tnye kat ak..bila ak nmpak, terus rs nk sembunyi blakang sara..wa3..takut giler kot..xtau nk kata ape..meng'cool' down perasaan difficult thing to do when in front of ur love ones..tp kontrol2 beb, ne leh gelabah xtentu psal kn..so, berlagak kool..tegur2 sape, kenalkn 'body2 guard' ak..then, dia tnye nk wat pe..so, dipendekkn cerita, kak yati, kak zana, n sara p tgk wyg cter 'Final destination 5"..ak nk tgk tp ats byk reason, ak pon xtgk la..salah satu sbbnye, ak nk borak lama2 ngn Mr. Tedy(lpas rindu..kononnye..he3)  n byk ag sbb yg lain..=)

          ktrg p makn dlu, pastu jln2 kat MPH(ak rs ak antu MPH kot..ha3)..pastu solat zohor, pastu teman dia p beli brang2..well, erm..seyes lain giler ak rs..(tp depan dia, still berlagak macho..keh3)..tp kn, klu nk ckap dia dulu n dia skrg, dia skrg lebih gentleman, more matured, more berkepimpinan (seyes, ak rs secure when he beside me)..tp kn(still tp tu..he3)..dia lebih mesra alam (means ak takut dia layan pompuan lain pon same, then ak gak la yg mkn ati..hu3)..sbb tu buat ak terpk, bgus gak ktrg dok jauh2, xde la ak tau dia asyik jupe pompuan lain, jupe pon xde la kerap sgt, uji kesetiaan kami..well, mungkin ade hikmahnye..so, let time decide it..for now, i'll just pray d best for us..mintak2 jodoh kami hingga k syurga n hidup di jalan yg diredhai Allah..

p/s: kagum giler cincin yg ak bg kat dia tul2 muat kat jari manis dia even ak main beli j cincin ari tu..he3..(apakah tndanye???)..kite da rindu kat awk..pe kes ni??ho3

doa panjang jodoh..

Dengan nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang……

Ya Allah…
Seandainya telah Engkau catatkan…
Dia milikku, tercipta buatku…
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku…
Titipkanlah kebahagiaan antara kami…
Kukuhkanlah ukhwah Islamiyah kami…
Agar kemesraan itu abadi…
Ya Allah…
Ya Tuhanku yang Maha Mengasihi…
Seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini…
Ke tepian yang sejahtera dan abadi…
Istiqamahkanlah kami ya Allah…
Demi meneruskan perjuangan kami dalam medan dakwah yang penuh cabaran ini…
Moga putra-putri kami bisa menjadi muslimin dan muslimat…
Pendokong jamaah, penggerak Islamiyah…
Tetapi ya Allah…
Seandainya telah Engkau takdirkan…
Dia bukan milikku…
Bawalah dia jauh dari pandanganku…
Luputkanlah dia dari ingatanku…
Dan peliharakanlah aku dari kekecewaan…
Jika aku gagal menangkis kekecewaan itu…
kuatkan lah hati ku Ya Allah..
Pelihara dan mantapkankanlah imanku…
Moga kekecewaan itu tidak melaghakn diriku dan menjauhiMu…
Ya Allah ya Tuhanku yang Maha Mengerti…
Berikanlah aku kekuatan…Menolak bayangannya jauh ke dada langit…
Agarku sentiasa tenang…
Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya…
Ya Allah yang tercinta…
Pasrahkan aku dengan takdir-Mu…
Aku redha dengan segala ketentuan dari-Mu…
Inilah ujian buatku…
Sesungguhnya apa yang telah Engkau takdirkan…
Adalah yang terbaik untukku…
Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui…
Segala yang terbaik buat hamba-Mu ini…
Ya Allah…
Cukuplah Engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaanku…
Di dunia dan akhirat…
Dengarkanlah rintihan dari hamba-Mu yang daif ini…
pandulah ak k jalan yg benar,
jalan yg Engkau redhai, Janganlah Engkau biarkan aku sendirian…
Di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat..
Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman…
Agar aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup…
Sama-sama dapat terus bergerak di dalam Jamaah Islam…
Andainya sudah ditakdirkan buatku…
Pendokong Jemaah bukan jodohku…
Mantapkanlah tarbiyahku…
Agar aku mampu membawanya bersama melalui liku perjuangan ini…
Sama-sama berusaha mendaulatkan Islam…
Ke jalan yang Engkau redhai…
Dan kurniakanlah padaku keturunan soleh dan solehah…
Yang pastinya menjadi aset utama penegak syiar agama-Mu…
Ya Allah …
Redhakanlah perjuangan kami…
Berikanlah kami kebahagiaan di dunia dan akhirat…
Dan peliharakanlah kami dari azab api Neraka…

Ameen…ameen Ya Rabbal a’lameen

alhamdulillah..all things was alrite..(i'm happy..)

     tarikh keramat 10 ogos 2011..tul k keramat??keramat la kot bg ak..ha3..after a long long time waiting for an answer, at last ak tau jugak perasaannye..all my waiting was became to an end..he confess to me..walaupun unexpected but seriously i'm damn happy..ha3..cannot say with a word..u know dat when ur confession is not one sided??u lov him n he also lov u??tu la org kata, cinta tu satu perasaan yg xleh digambarkn dgn kata2..hihi

      but i once had read a novel that when its said in d ending like dis "the princess n the prince then live happily ever after", before this i think dat all d problems and obstacles are settle and they all live happily ever after which means that their story was ended. but now, after i had read that novel, the ended of their sorrow is just a beginning for another sorrow..it means dat the life will not just ended like dat..there's lots of another stories..ended dis story, begins new story..our life is not a fairy tale, jus accept that..=)

it just depend on us how to handle it..either handle it with care or jus smashed it to the wall..as u know dat heart is fragile thing..ha3

     another thing that realize about guys is they dont like to talk about their feelings..(xpecially my Mr.Tedy)..seriously, its very hard to understand them..so, truthfully some of my behavior may really hurt his feeling but i didnt know dat..but when it comes to me, i will confess to him if dat des something hurting my feeling..if not, i felt something is not rite n mula la episod moody bermula..ha3..(but really poor to him a.k.a to d guys)..n for that, i'm really sorry..

p/s: stuck on idea..nk bg ape adiah besday nih??aish..hu3